For I am a dreamer...

This year has been a total roller coaster ride for me :) It began quite indifferently. My "group of friends" sort of bullied me in a way. I caught them backbiting me and it was hurtful as hell. (There were not the bestest group of friends that I have though as my bestest were not my classmates, but it still stung as hell).I had to start from scratch to find people who I get along with in the classroom. It was pretty hard since I'ma shy type of person and I'm not really the type who trusts easily :( However, as the year progressed, it turned out pretty well :) I got reunited with my highschool friends during the second semester, my grades got up, I was able to make my parents proud, maintained a scholarship. But the best is probably the moment I met the CIMORELLI BAND. Why? because they're just so inspiring, taught me a lot of things, and because of them, I met the lovely people of CimFam :) Gosh, I never knew such lovely people exist around the world. You...

It's now 25th of December in ASIA :) MERRY MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS! Don't forget to thank the Lord for everything that you got, whether good or bad :) It's like 1:16AM where I am, but hey, that's how we celebrate Philippine Christmases :) God bless all!

So far, so good :) Amy Cimorelli came on TC earlier this day, that literally made my Christmas Eve awesome! And you should see all of our reactions when she came on, it was like O_O So, anyway. I'm gonna be out for a while. Have to prepare for Christmas Celebration! :D MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!

For almost 2 days of waiting for a Cimorelli sister to go on, it finally paid off! Lauren Cimorelli came on tinychat today :) She might haven't noticed me (as she doesn't really know me), but I'm HAPPY! Sooooooooooo happy! And Lisa Cimorelli may haven't gone to tinychat, but she answered funny things on FormSpring, and she answered one of mine. So plus happiness points for me today! gaaaah! :D BTW, I won a SkypeSession with them sissies! :) look :) I got really happy because they've CHOSEN mine over a couple of entries :) and just now, Lisa DMed me. Oh man! I swear Imma jump off the cliff now! Gotta loooooove these girls!

So for the previous three to four days of my life, I have been  in TinyChat relentlessly in the hopes of seeing one of the Cimorelli sisters live on cam. I don't know what's going on with me. It's like from the moment I wake up down to the moment I sleep, all I think about is "are they ON? I hope they'd go on tomorrow" or something along those lines. Anyway, I'm being a  weirdo again. A dose of loneliness doesn't do anything good to me. It just makes me insecure, self-pitying and a lot more. I always feel like I'm the 'unwanted' one. The one who everybody doesn't wanna talk to. Maybe because I lack the spontaneity and I'm pretty boring. I tried to be fun and normal once, but the only thing it did was heightening up my confusing thoughts about myself. Is this an identity-crisis? or am I just really going crazy? Maybe. Urghh. Life just kind of sucks sometimes. It's Christmas, but I feel empty. It's like nothing pretty mu...

So, weeks ago, I went to different institutions to have certain blood tests done. If you read my previous blog, my doctor apparently had an initial diagnoses of either Acromegaly or Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome for me. And yep! I had my tests done! And just recently, the results arrived one by one. I'm glad to report that my growth hormones are soooooooooo within the normal limits! So yehey for the elimination of Acromegaly! :) Then my tests for PCOS came in (with estrogen, estradiol, testosterone, etc), and surprisingly, they all came back normal. However, I am quite doubtful with the results because days after and before the test, I had series of spotting sessions. I'm afraid if that caused some alterations with the results. Well, I don't really know anything at this moment, but I'm pretty sure I need to get an ultrasound to check whether there REALLY are cysts on my ovaries. But one test turned out bleh! the Oral Glucose Tolerance Test. The fasting one was ...

There are a lot of things in my life that I am so thankful for. My family, my friends, my teachers, my computer, my phone, the person who invented the internet, etc, but this time I wanna thank God for this amazing brood of singers, oh not just singers, but an amazing brood of people.  Yeah. I'm a CIMORELLI FAN (thumbs up!). And my story goes like this. One day, I was feeling all tired, depressed, down, insecure plus a hundred more unpleasant feelings . I went to YouTube to listen to Selena Gomez' "Who Says" for a sprinkle of anti-insecurity dose. After watching the vid, I went and see Demi Lovato's "Skyscraper", and then right there and then I see video thumbnail of six girls doing a cover of the song, so I clicked it and voila! I became a CIMFAN! My personal favorites from all of their covers are Skyscraper, PERFECT! (I absolutely adore Perfect, and I came to know the song because of them! And their rendition was just beyond the word beauty...

Flightless Bird? This will be one loooooong post. First and foremost, I am extremely ticked off right now. I was about to post a link to my blog (3 years of age) to make a reference of my post now. Apparently, Friendster blogs no longer work, and all my blog entries there are ERASED! :( Now I regret not saving copies of my entries there. Those were entries that are very important to me, and are just so memorable. And now it's GONE. Forever. Cannot be retrieved. Vanished. Anyway, this is a blog about Twilight, so to haters out there, better not continue reading because you'll just abhor what I'll write here. So 3 years ago, when I was still a Senior High School student, I apparently was a HUGE fan of Twilight. And I mean HUGE! All my previous blogs before were about Twilight, my notebooks were full of scribbles of quotes from the series, there isn't a day I don't talk about it, there isn't a day I take time to go to twilightguide.com, there was a point th...

So, I went to the doctor for a check-up earlier this day. And boy oh boy! I didn't expect what happened. So, I expected the possible diagnosis of Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. It is a disease affecting women, casuing subfertility/infertility. I've known about the disease years ago when I started to look for answers regarding my condition. But what I am really shocked was 'Acromegaly'. Acromegaly occurs due to the hypersecretion of growth hormone by the pituitary gland after the epiphyseal plate closes. I don't know what to feel at this very moment. These diagnoses aren't really final. I still have to travel to a different place to get my laboratory tests done. If I am to be diagnosed with Acromegaly, I don't have any idea how to live my life anymore. It is a chronic disease that causes malformation of physical features and eventually causes premature death. Of all diseases, I didn't expect this one to come up on my list of probable diseases. I can a...

Apparently, my doc's appointment isn't until next hour, so better put something in here.. So yeah. I've been on this site for 2 years, I think? But I don't really have much updates because I just don't feel like putting my life into writings and I didn't have the time to actually write something. I think it is high time that I should really be getting into blogging because it's one of the things I love doing and probably is a therapeutic way for me to cope up if certain things spring forth. I was trying to do 'blogging through notes' in Facebook, but it's too public. I have my own family there, and my teachers. There are just things that aren't meant to be spilled to them. So it's good that I still have blogspot to get my emotions running. Probably at this very moment, I don't have a follower yet. And I'm not actually hoping to have followers. Besides, I'm anti-social in real life, so I wouldn't expect to have reader...

So, I'm officially starting this blog right now... But I don't have anything to write.. yet. I'm gonna meet with my doctor today, so toodles! Gonna update this soon!