For I am a dreamer...

It's 3:14 am, and I'm letting my tears freely pour forth while gracing my ears with the wonderful cover of  "I won't give up (originally by Jason Mraz) " by Cimorelli :') You girls just know how to cheer me up! I've been wanting to give up (not necessarily on love) on a loooot of things in my life right now. I am just at the brink of actually letting go of certain things, of actually letting my guard down. And here you girls are, singing a song that somehow whispers to me not to give up. I don't know if that's pure coincidence or not. Gaaah! I just can't imagine what my life could have been had I not stumble upon that "Skyscraper" video of yours last August :') I know you girls have heard a looooooot of times of how you changed people's lives but then again, I will say it cause it really holds the truth. You've seriously changed my viewpoints about life, about God, about human existence, about the definition of beautif...

(this post is for the Cimorelli girls) WAAAAAAAAAAAH! (I successfully tried to hide the screaming and the crying part when we Skyped, but it took like hours to condition myself not to..) Anyhow, thank you! I had a great time skyping with your girls. Sorry, if well, I acted weird and stuff. I do feel like I haven't answered some questions that you asked. My mind was fighting against myself to shut down. :) And it was nerve-wracking to talk to you guys. So, here are some of the questions you asked that I felt like I poorly responded to: 1.) Favorite food of the Filipinos: > I think it varies place to place, region to region and stuffs :) But like a lot of Asians, we love to eat rice (generally speaking). Our meals wouldn't be complete without rice :)  and our national food is "lechon" (the roasted pig) (I don't really like to eat this, but generally, Filipinos love it. It's an important food during fiestas too) But on personal ...

I've been bullied relentlessly back then. People tease me all the time, make fun of me as if I can't feel what they are doing/saying. To my fellow people who got/is getting bullied. Don't think LESS of yourself just because some rude people tell you that you're not worth it. YOU ARE! Every piece of you is worth it! Your hair, your nose, your eyes, your voice, your 'bulges', your everything! You are here because Somebody up there saw how important your presence to the world will be. Don't let some immature mortal to take that away from you. Just think that one day, in the future, you'd get yourself in the perfect place. That one day, you will rise like a skyscraper, climb to the highest mountain, be president of a country and prove to them and mostly to yourself that YOU ARE worth it (even though you probably are even before you get those things). Ignore the haters and surround yourself with people you love and who love you. Go on with your life, ca...

It's midnight and apparently I found myself across an old photo of mine 3 years ago from highschool that was posted by a highschool batchmate (3 years ago as well). I knew from the moment I opened that tab that this is going to turn into something ugly, and bang! There I saw the rude comments those people threw at me  Ofcourse, I've read the comments in the past and I ignored it over and over again until such time that I accidentally stumbled upon it and reread the comments once more. It still stings. It hurts how people would just throw nasty comments at you just to amuse themselves without even thinking of how you feel and stuff. It's sad to know that you are made as a laughing stock, as if you were the board that people throw darts on..  I didn't ever imagine that what they did to me was bullying. Ofcourse I saw it as rude, hurtful and nasty stuff, but I didn't really think it was bullying. Maybe because of the presence of my close high school buddies back...

I really dislike the fact that 2012 started quite badly for me. I came back to school with looaaaaadddddssss of difficult things to do, grades are in the verge of falling waaaaaay below my standards, a thesis paper to start, prepare for my travel to another province for my pschiatric ward exposure, and my whole family is feeling sick -.-  The year started off with my left ear aching like crazy last January 1 accompanied by a fever. My mom isn't doing so well either, my brother has frequent stomach aches and my dad has the fever. What a way to start the new year. Oh well, I hope this doesn't go on for the rest of the year, I pray to God. Make us healthy again Lord and keep us that way for a loooong time :)

It's officially 2012 here in the Philippines, 2:40am to be exact :) Gosh, I never expected 2011 to be over in such a short amount of time. Overall, the year was pretty good to me. Despite the appearances of some difficult and arduous waves of problems, I managed to surf over them with the help of God :) Nothing really unique happened in 2011 for me, I wasn't able to travel to a new place, didn't even know how to drive, not having a boyfriend. It's like the same old me all throughout the year. Oh wait. I did have a wonderful one-of-a-kind experience. I got to know the CIMORELLI band and my beloved CimFam! That is one very big blessing that God gave to me last 2011 :) I cannot be more pleased and grateful for the opportunity to meet such beautiful, caring, sweet, lovable, talented and extraordinary people. And one more thing that I'm grateful of is the year-round peace and understanding that enveloped my family, good health and sound mind :) I look forward to ...